I haven't been myself lately, as I've been told. The past is behind me now, tomorrow is a new start. You know who gets to make the decisions for my life? I do. That's right, I am the one that determines whether I am going to have a good day, week, month, year, life. God has given me the strength and ability to face each day. I'm still here, aren't I?

We only have one chance at life. Live it to the fullest, take chances, write thank you notes, smile at strangers, gaze at the stars, travel the world, write a song and sing it to the birds, jump in a huge pile of leaves, surprise your momma with fresh flowers, do something nice without being asked to, do something totally unexpected, and remember to love with everything in you.

I am going to have an awesome week. No matter what God decides to throw my way, everything will be okay because He is in charge.

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight.

I haven't truly updated in forever. No one really looks at this anyway.

My life has been pretty chaotic lately, I guess in a good way. Maybe.

I've learned many things about myself the past couple weeks. I've learned I'm a lot stronger than I thought, even through my numerous breakdowns. I haven't really been my normal bubbly self, and if you've been around me and I've been grouchy, I would like to give you my deepest condolences.

The song that sums me up today is Lifehouse's "Broken". I'm not trying to be all sappy and depressed, promise. It just truly describes what I'm experiencing in life right now.

"I'm hangin' on another day, just to see what you will throw my way.

And I'm hangin' on to the words you say, you said that I will be okay."

God never said this life would be easy, be He did promise that we wouldn't journey it alone.

Also, something totally not related to this...Every time I hear the song "Good Riddance" by Green Day, I pretty much burst into tears. It reminds me of all the fond memories I've had the pleasure of experiencing. I miss 4-H, I'd give anything to rewind time to about 2 years ago.

I have an obsession with http://icanread.tumblr.com/

It's basically a blog that has images with words.

Anyway, I saw a cute little image with an older couple on it. It read, "I love seeing old couples. It makes me realize that actually someone can love you forever."

I can't help it, I'm a hopeless romantic.

Sorry, this blog has been super spontaneous and all over the place. My thoughts are like that :)

Don't let me fall in love with you..

You got sapphire eyes and that's okay.
I've seen that before, it's nothing new.
You can look at me that way if you want.
But don't let me fall in love with you.
You got one of those smiles I've heard about, that can tear a soul in two.
Almost afraid to see you happy.
I just might fall in love with you.

Don't let me fall, don't be so cruel.
Don't let me fall, if I can't have you.

When we touch electricity gets through.
It's a good trick if you can do it,
To make me fall in love with you.

Don't let me fall, don't be so cruel.
Don't let me fall,
If I can't have you.

You talk with tongues of angels.
And there is grace in all you do.
My heart aches to see you sway like that.
Oh, please, please don't let me fall in love with you.
Please, please don't let me fall in love with you.