I wonder why music means so much to me. Music, more than anything else, takes a soul into outer space and it says, “Be free”. It’s like a good book. You ESCAPE. There’s something about peace that drives me up a wall, the kind of peace that is like running through the woods yelling “I am free”. I strive for the true meaning of life and not the materialistic-life society that we are surrounded by.
God is the only reason I am who I am. I may not be perfect, but I find refuge in His love. I know that He knows my heart, and He is the only one who can save me through relationship and faith.
I want to go to a park, lay in the grass, and see stars come to life. I want to see princesses and unicorns among the clouds. I want to see them and believe they're there. I don't want to pretend.
I want to write the book that has been floating in my head for twenty years, and I want you to read it. More than that, I want it to punch you in the gut. I want you to feel it.
I want to be the best daughter, the best sister, the best friend.
I want to talk on the phone for hours and catch up, without once racking my brain for what to say next.
I want to be hopelessly lost without being hopelessly afraid.
I want to know where I'm going.
I want to be okay with not knowing.
I want a bookshelf that reaches the Heavens that holds all the books I've ever read, and all the books I want to read.
I want to save the world.
I want to be the girl that the song is about. I want someone to write poems about me, but then again, I don't. I want to be the girl that cannot be captured with words.
I want to take a road trip with no destination, but away, and nothing but a full tank of gas and people that make me laugh.
I want to read a poem to an audience, and I want them to know that I have given them a piece of me.
It's so hard to stay upset when there's so much beauty in this world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart feels up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain. -American Beauty You know, I can't help but feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my life, the life I take for granted.
One thing I have learned about life is that it goes on. The sun will rise tomorrow whether you want it to or not. This semester everything changed: My responsibilities, my sense of home, and especially my friendships. I had to make a radical change and purge all that was close to me last year in order to move on. It was hard, but I have changed because of it. Truth is, it was the best thing that could happen to me. God has provided me with a job that I love and friends and family that care about me.
Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worse, returned. But one thing about human beings that puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within. -Sigmund Freud
When people would talk about what they want to be remembered for, I would usually not contribute to the conversation, not really having the slightest clue. But now, I have an answer for this: I simply want to be remembered for loving. Loving others, loving knowledge, loving nature, loving life, loving music, loving God, and loving laughter. I just want to love and be loved, and be remembered for loving.
I am starting a blog because I think my life is immensely interesting and should be documented. Kidding. The main purpose of this is to share musical recommendations, talk about good books, share insightful quotes, talk about what life means to me, and to attempt to make sense of things.
