I'm not who I was

I wish you could see me now

I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was

I found my way around
To forgiving you
Some time ago
But I never got to tell you so

I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was

When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend
It was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you

I reckon it's a funny thing
I figured out I can sing
Now I'm not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
I'm not who I was

I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know
I am not the same
But I never did forget your name
Hello

Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was

"I'm Not Who I Was" -Brandon Heath

I can't get enough of this song.

God is rocking my world today.

Let's say something lovely..

He had one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it, that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced, or seemed to face, the whole external world for an instant and then concentrated on you with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just as far as you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like to believe in yourself.
-F. Scott Fitzgerald

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.

-Annie

I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

-When Harry Met Sally

What's meant to be will always find a way.

-Trisha Yearwood

Over and over and over again, I say that we're just friends. Forget the implications, infatuations end. If love's so easy, why is it hard; I can't imagine ever being apart. I'll come back to you, it'd be brand new. But I promise, we're just friends. Over and over and over again, I try to make amends for everything that I've done wrong. My whole world just spins, make some coffee, hold me up, try to talk me out of giving up. I'll come back to you, it'll be brand new..but I promise, we're just friends.

-Wilco, "We're Just Friends"

“I think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. The world would stop turning and people would stop changing because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.”

"God loved the birds and invented trees. Man loved the birds and invented cages."

You never quit on your music...no matter what happens... cause anytime something bad happens to you, it's the one place you can escape to and just, pshh, let it go.
-August Rush

A few times in my life I've had moments of absolute clarity, when for a few brief seconds the silence drowns out the noise and I can feel rather than think, and things seem so sharp and the world seems so fresh. I can never make these moments last. I cling to them, but like everything, they fade. I have lived my life on these moments. They pull me back to the present, and I realize that everything is exactly the way it was meant to be.

-The Single Man

You mustn't be afraid to dream a little bigger, darling.

-Inception

Whatever happened to chivalry? Does it only exist in 80's movies? I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window. I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey. I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me. I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me. Just once I want my life to be like an 80's movie, preferably one with a really awesome musical number for no apparent reason.

-Easy A

Happy.

I feel like I know what it means to be completely and genuinely happy. Do you ever have days where it feels like you don't have a care in the world and you are just simply living? Welcome to the past week of my life. I have accepted the fact that I do not write my days and that God is in control and will NEVER give me more than I can handle. And I find peace in that. Lots and lots of peace. Every obstacle I encounter, He knows. Every temptation I face, He knows. And He is with me. Every day, every hour, every minute, every second. He never leaves.

Spring is my favorite season. You can see so much beauty during this time. The trees are blossoming, the birds are chirping again, the temperature is just right, and you can drive with your windows down again. When I think of spring, new beginnings come to mind. I am ready for a new beginning.