Your eyes are either gray or blue, I'm never close enough to say.

I won't make the move
you must make the move
If you make the move
I will then approve
If you do not move
we will surely lose

Gray or Blue-Jaymay

..Hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin..

I never quite understood John Mayer's song, "Waiting on the World to Change". Why must we wait for change? Instead of complaining about how horrible the world is, why don't you get up and do something. The condition of this world is in OUR hands. Go pick up the trash you see on the side of the road. Help someone get back on their feet. Listen when someone talks to you, don't just nod on cue.

"Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle."
-James M. Barrie.

Everyone is facing some kind of giant. Some people hide it so well that no one ever notices.

Come Home- OneRepublic
This song never ceases to leave me with chills.

Music was supposed to bring people closer.

And I thought about how many people have loved those songs. And how many people got through a lot of bad times because of those songs. And how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. And how much those songs really mean. I think it would be great to have written one of those songs. I bet if I wrote one of them, I would be very proud. I hope the people who wrote those songs are happy. I hope they feel it's enough. I really do because they've made me happy. And I'm only one person.
-The Perks of Being a Wallflower

A few songs that have had a tremendous impact on my life:

Dream- Priscilla Ahn
Keep Breathing- Ingrid Michaelson
Jesus Christ- Brand New
Dirty and Left Out- The Almost
How He Loves- John Mark McMillan
Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol
Everything- Lifehouse
From Where You Are- Lifehouse
Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing- Sufjan Stevens
Such Great Heights- Iron and Wine
Where We Gonna Go From Here- Mat Kearney

We were made to never fall away..

One of these days the sky's gonna break and everything will escape and I'll know
One of these days the mountains are gonna fall into the sea and they'll know
That you and I were made for this
I was made to taste your kiss
We were made to never fall away
Never fall away

One of these days letters are gonna fall from the sky telling us all to go free
But until that day I'll find a way to let everybody know that you're coming back, you're coming back for me
'Cause even though you left me here I have nothing left to fear
These are only walls that hold me here
Hold me here, hold me here
The only walls to hold me here

One day soon I'll hold you like the sun holds the moon
And we will hear those planes overhead and we won't have to be scared
We won't have to be scared, we won't have to be scared

You're coming back for me
You're coming back for me
You're coming back to me

-"Letters From The Sky" by Civil Twilight


I find this song so chilling, but yet so beautiful. It could be taken as simply a love song for two lovers apart by circumstance. It is very possible that the epic imagery is based off of biblical events such as the end of the world. There are undeniable religious themes in the song, the sky breaking and mountains cast into the sea, along with fear of planes flying overhead strongly suggest apocalyptic themes and the second coming. It reads "we were made to never fall away". One thing to note is that the lyrics not only pertain to the speaker but to us all.

I want to be free..

I wonder why music means so much to me. Music, more than anything else, takes a soul into outer space and it says, “Be free”. It’s like a good book. You ESCAPE. There’s something about peace that drives me up a wall, the kind of peace that is like running through the woods yelling “I am free”. I strive for the true meaning of life and not the materialistic-life society that we are surrounded by.

God is the only reason I am who I am. I may not be perfect, but I find refuge in His love. I know that He knows my heart, and He is the only one who can save me through relationship and faith.

Kiss Your Feet - John Mark McMillan

Good Things Don't Come Easy

I want to go to a park, lay in the grass, and see stars come to life. I want to see princesses and unicorns among the clouds. I want to see them and believe they're there. I don't want to pretend.

I want to write the book that has been floating in my head for twenty years, and I want you to read it. More than that, I want it to punch you in the gut. I want you to feel it.

I want to be the best daughter, the best sister, the best friend.

I want to talk on the phone for hours and catch up, without once racking my brain for what to say next.

I want to be hopelessly lost without being hopelessly afraid.

I want to know where I'm going.

I want to be okay with not knowing.

I want a bookshelf that reaches the Heavens that holds all the books I've ever read, and all the books I want to read.

I want to save the world.

I want to be the girl that the song is about. I want someone to write poems about me, but then again, I don't. I want to be the girl that cannot be captured with words.

I want to take a road trip with no destination, but away, and nothing but a full tank of gas and people that make me laugh.

I want to read a poem to an audience, and I want them to know that I have given them a piece of me.

I want to wear a hat without looking silly.

I want to learn to speak another language.

I want to remember everything, never forget.

I want to seek redemption.

I want to make a difference.

I want the world to make me wonder..

It's so hard to stay upset when there's so much beauty in this world.
Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart feels up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain. -American Beauty
You know, I can't help but feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my life, the life I take for granted.

One thing I have learned about life is that it goes on. The sun will rise tomorrow whether you want it to or not. This semester everything changed: My responsibilities, my sense of home, and especially my friendships. I had to make a radical change and purge all that was close to me last year in order to move on. It was hard, but I have changed because of it. Truth is, it was the best thing that could happen to me. God has provided me with a job that I love and friends and family that care about me.

Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worse, returned. But one thing about human beings that puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within. -Sigmund Freud

When people would talk about what they want to be remembered for, I would usually not contribute to the conversation, not really having the slightest clue. But now, I have an answer for this:
I simply want to be remembered for loving. Loving others, loving knowledge, loving nature, loving life, loving music, loving God, and loving laughter. I just want to love and be loved, and be remembered for loving.